ARGH!!

Why?? Why does it have to be so hard?? And why do I let people walk all over me?? I'm so frustrated with Colin right now. He won't open his mouth and get the things he needs from his parents and all he wants to do is mope about. He gets a new job in addition to his job working for his dad and it's not going they way he wants it to go. While I understand his frustration for being called off from work yesterday, I appreciated him being here with me yesterday after my procedure. I wasn't sure how I was going to take Jack out without getting hurt or hurting. And then, to top it off, he gets upset with me. Seriously?? We need to have a serious coming to Jesus talk. I don't know how much more of the moping and piss ant attitude I can take. I love him and appreciate the things that he does for me, but there are times that I feel completely taken advantage of by him. I'm going to enjoy my evening without him tonight. Just me and Jack and all the kitties. Hugs to you all!

Holy Cow its been a while

Wow!! Where do I start?! I flew up to Rhode Island and spent the day with my friend Nancy and Nannette. Got to see some of the sites of Rhode Island and then went and got my old friend Jack back from the ex. It was a long weekend, but worth it. Jack is now with me and living life to the fullest. Although, I don't know if sleeping under a blanket would be considered living life to the fullest for him! LOL!! At least he is not in a crate all day long and getting more exercise. I am very happy to have him with me considering I never thought I would see him again. Ever!

OK, so my other accomplishment is having found someone. I thought for a long time I was tainted goods and no one would want to be with me. But I have found someone who treats me right and enjoys a lot of the same things I do. I get a lot of questions about when I am getting married. I keep telling them I don't know. It's only been 7 months. Is that enough time to get to know someone? I want to get married again and I want to have a family, but I don't want to seem pushy or needy. I am not needy, but I am so bored after work. I want to have something to do. I don't know if going back to school is the right answer because I feel bad that Jack is in the kitchen all day while I am at work. I feel bad for him already.

Ugh. I'm just babbling. Lots on the mind tonight. Hugs to all.

New Adventure...Old Friend coming home

I'm am very excited!! It's been a interesting couple of weeks, but I have an old friend coming home this weekend. My dog Jack is coming home. I am adding to my new adventures of being on my own. Having Jack back is going to be a good thing for me and him. First of all, he needs a lot of love and attention, and I am willing and able to give that to him. Second, he is going to get me out of the house and it will give me opportunities to take more pictures. There are lots of dog parks around. Lots of new dog friends to be made!! And that's my new adventure as well. Jack is going to provide for me another outlet. I'm looking forward to my little buddy coming home. The cats may not be so happy about it, but it's going to be good for me and Jack!!

"Nah, it's no good...didn't look good"

So, how is a person supposed to get to know someone if they don't want to communicate? And how are you supposed to peel back the layers if you don't ask questions? And why is it that he wants an apology from me for trying to attempt to do just that??

Just go, and brood about how stubborn and hardheaded you are being and lose my number while you are at it.

Why is it that a girl can't have a friend who has a mutual friend of his check him out for me? I had to make sure that I was not getting involved with a "dirty bird." But apparently, this mutual friend didn't warn me about the hardheaded and stubborness of this guy and now I am the one taking the blame for him being "spitting fire pissed."

So long...farewell.

NEXT...

Interesting, interesting

It's very interesting the things you find on the Internet these days. Clothes, electronics....the possibility of a new person in your life. I hope that I am not jinxing myself by writing this now. There are definitely feelings there between the 2 of us. But he wants to take things slow. I am ok with it to a degree. But I think my degree of dissatisfaction comes from the lack of companionship, friendship, someone to come home to or be waiting for someone. While I do enjoy being on my own, I miss the companionship that comes from friendship/someone living with you. Yes, I know I complained about the roommates, however, its not quite the same. The roommates were women and they just didn't quite give the companionship I was looking for. And no, I am not talking about sex. That will come with time, its just nice having someone to talk to and learn about and just being with someone who makes you feel good about yourself. Doesn't judge you and actually wants to be with you. I learning the real, true art of patience. We have spent time together. And he's even teaching me ballroom dancing. He loves it! Its a big part of his life seeing as how it changed his life drastically. I have done my research on him. There is one thing that I am disappointed about, but I am learning to deal with it because apparently, more people partake of this thing than I realize. Me, I've never touched it, don't particularly want it around me. But the way I look at it, I can go with it, but hopefully, maybe keep him from doing it if I can keep him occupied. Again, not talking about sex, but maybe with the ballroom dancing or just going out in general. But if it gets too bad, then I can walk away.

But you know, it may be hard when my cats have even judged his character and like him a lot. I was in complete amazement when they both came over to him and let him pet them both! I couldn't believe it! Callie even sat in his lap! I'm not complaining. I think its awesome.

My emotions are a wreck right now. It just feels awesome to know that I am being thought about by someone again. Someone who the thoughts are reciprocated. I am enjoying the dancing lessons. I've only had 2, but he says that I am doing pretty good. I just have to learn to give him control and let him lead. I am just so used to leading...lol! Even in my previous relationship. It was just force of habit.

Pray for patience for me. I really like this guy for him. Not about any of the other things. He's a great guy and I just hope that it goes further the way I/we would both like it to. I just need to keep my patience. I don't want to force anything or be aggressive. I have a bad habit of doing that. Patience, patience, patience.

I am good!!

We are going to pick up the dogs this weekend in North Carolina and then I will drop her off next Monday at her house. So I will only have had one guest for approximately 3 weeks!!

Update!!

Good news: They found a house!! Bad news: won't be able to move in until mid-September. I am hoping I can keep my sanity until then.

In the mean time, I have been having fun with my camera. I was able to get the zoom lense for my camera this past weekend and now I am really having some fun!!

Hugs to you all!!