Interesting, interesting

It's very interesting the things you find on the Internet these days. Clothes, electronics....the possibility of a new person in your life. I hope that I am not jinxing myself by writing this now. There are definitely feelings there between the 2 of us. But he wants to take things slow. I am ok with it to a degree. But I think my degree of dissatisfaction comes from the lack of companionship, friendship, someone to come home to or be waiting for someone. While I do enjoy being on my own, I miss the companionship that comes from friendship/someone living with you. Yes, I know I complained about the roommates, however, its not quite the same. The roommates were women and they just didn't quite give the companionship I was looking for. And no, I am not talking about sex. That will come with time, its just nice having someone to talk to and learn about and just being with someone who makes you feel good about yourself. Doesn't judge you and actually wants to be with you. I learning the real, true art of patience. We have spent time together. And he's even teaching me ballroom dancing. He loves it! Its a big part of his life seeing as how it changed his life drastically. I have done my research on him. There is one thing that I am disappointed about, but I am learning to deal with it because apparently, more people partake of this thing than I realize. Me, I've never touched it, don't particularly want it around me. But the way I look at it, I can go with it, but hopefully, maybe keep him from doing it if I can keep him occupied. Again, not talking about sex, but maybe with the ballroom dancing or just going out in general. But if it gets too bad, then I can walk away.

But you know, it may be hard when my cats have even judged his character and like him a lot. I was in complete amazement when they both came over to him and let him pet them both! I couldn't believe it! Callie even sat in his lap! I'm not complaining. I think its awesome.

My emotions are a wreck right now. It just feels awesome to know that I am being thought about by someone again. Someone who the thoughts are reciprocated. I am enjoying the dancing lessons. I've only had 2, but he says that I am doing pretty good. I just have to learn to give him control and let him lead. I am just so used to leading...lol! Even in my previous relationship. It was just force of habit.

Pray for patience for me. I really like this guy for him. Not about any of the other things. He's a great guy and I just hope that it goes further the way I/we would both like it to. I just need to keep my patience. I don't want to force anything or be aggressive. I have a bad habit of doing that. Patience, patience, patience.