"Nah, it's no good...didn't look good"

So, how is a person supposed to get to know someone if they don't want to communicate? And how are you supposed to peel back the layers if you don't ask questions? And why is it that he wants an apology from me for trying to attempt to do just that??

Just go, and brood about how stubborn and hardheaded you are being and lose my number while you are at it.

Why is it that a girl can't have a friend who has a mutual friend of his check him out for me? I had to make sure that I was not getting involved with a "dirty bird." But apparently, this mutual friend didn't warn me about the hardheaded and stubborness of this guy and now I am the one taking the blame for him being "spitting fire pissed."

So long...farewell.

NEXT...

Interesting, interesting

It's very interesting the things you find on the Internet these days. Clothes, electronics....the possibility of a new person in your life. I hope that I am not jinxing myself by writing this now. There are definitely feelings there between the 2 of us. But he wants to take things slow. I am ok with it to a degree. But I think my degree of dissatisfaction comes from the lack of companionship, friendship, someone to come home to or be waiting for someone. While I do enjoy being on my own, I miss the companionship that comes from friendship/someone living with you. Yes, I know I complained about the roommates, however, its not quite the same. The roommates were women and they just didn't quite give the companionship I was looking for. And no, I am not talking about sex. That will come with time, its just nice having someone to talk to and learn about and just being with someone who makes you feel good about yourself. Doesn't judge you and actually wants to be with you. I learning the real, true art of patience. We have spent time together. And he's even teaching me ballroom dancing. He loves it! Its a big part of his life seeing as how it changed his life drastically. I have done my research on him. There is one thing that I am disappointed about, but I am learning to deal with it because apparently, more people partake of this thing than I realize. Me, I've never touched it, don't particularly want it around me. But the way I look at it, I can go with it, but hopefully, maybe keep him from doing it if I can keep him occupied. Again, not talking about sex, but maybe with the ballroom dancing or just going out in general. But if it gets too bad, then I can walk away.

But you know, it may be hard when my cats have even judged his character and like him a lot. I was in complete amazement when they both came over to him and let him pet them both! I couldn't believe it! Callie even sat in his lap! I'm not complaining. I think its awesome.

My emotions are a wreck right now. It just feels awesome to know that I am being thought about by someone again. Someone who the thoughts are reciprocated. I am enjoying the dancing lessons. I've only had 2, but he says that I am doing pretty good. I just have to learn to give him control and let him lead. I am just so used to leading...lol! Even in my previous relationship. It was just force of habit.

Pray for patience for me. I really like this guy for him. Not about any of the other things. He's a great guy and I just hope that it goes further the way I/we would both like it to. I just need to keep my patience. I don't want to force anything or be aggressive. I have a bad habit of doing that. Patience, patience, patience.

I am good!!

We are going to pick up the dogs this weekend in North Carolina and then I will drop her off next Monday at her house. So I will only have had one guest for approximately 3 weeks!!

Update!!

Good news: They found a house!! Bad news: won't be able to move in until mid-September. I am hoping I can keep my sanity until then.

In the mean time, I have been having fun with my camera. I was able to get the zoom lense for my camera this past weekend and now I am really having some fun!!

Hugs to you all!!

OK, so its not as bad as I thought

She won't be staying very long. She realized that we both have strong heads and apparently they are going to have enough money for both of them to move down here within the next 2 weeks. This is going to get real interesting, real quick. Mark should be here by the beginning of September and she will only be in my house for approximately 2 weeks. This seems to be a blessing in disguise, but I am still waiting for them to realize it possibly may not work. Keeping a positive attitude though so that it works out for them AND me and we can all be happy campers.

So, let's see....

Things are good and mildly annoying at the moment. I have gotten my camera and have taken lots of pictures. I need to start posting some here. I am really enjoying what I see through the lense. I just need to get a bigger zoom lense now. I realized this past week and last night that it would be so much easier to get close up shots of the players (went to a baseball game the other night and the Bucs practice session last night). But I can wait a bit longer for it. I've got some housesitting jobs lined up so I should have it in no time.

Now to the mildly annoying. While I love my brother and sister in law, I more often than not question their motives and the things that they do. They decided to put their house on the market so that they can move to Florida. They HAD a buyer for their house, but he backed out. So even though that is not a done deal with getting the house sold, they are still moving forward and moving down here without having thought everything through. While I think it is awesome that Beth was able to find a job down here, Mark has not, and will continue to live in NC until such time as something comes along or the house sells. Whichever comes first. However, here is the kicker. I will be having a roommate AGAIN soon. Her name is Beth, a family member, my sister in law. I honestly don't know her very well and she considers herself my "sister" because she doesn't talk to her own sister. She says that she is going to come into my home and start rearranging things and I honestly don't appreciate it. I am hoping that this will not be another situation like the last one. I am so irritated that they just assumed that she could come live with me. Did they not take into consideration that I just had someone living with me? Did they not take into consideration that I have a life and intend to live it? I have honestly come accustomed to living on my own. I love it! And when someone tells me that they are coming into to change it, I tend to get a little upset by that. ARGH!!!

So, I am going to take this opportunity to just relax and get to know her, but at the same time, enjoy my life around her. I have to. I can't just sit back and let what I have going on in my life get trampled on. I am truly finding my backbone in all of this. I learned my lesson the first time with the other roommate. I am not going to let this one walk all over me. Not going to happen.

More rantings from me will probably be forthcoming, but I had to get this off my chest. I am feeling a bit better now. Pray for me and my sanity. I am going to need it!! Love to you all!

In Search of...

So, I am in search of some new, old friends. My so-called friends are not what I want anymore. I don't want to associate with them anymore. They are rude and obnoxious and I am done with all of that. I realized that if I want to find somebody decent, that I had to learn that I am judged by whom I hang out with. The things that have gone on the last few weeks with them was not the best for me. I am branching out on my own and will be finding some new hobbies to keep occupied. I am thinking of taking a class or two in the fall and taking up photography. I have done a lot of thinking about this over the long weekend. I feel this is the best decision for me to find me. I need to define me and what I like to do.

Guys that I have been talking to ask me what I like to do, and I realized that I didn't have a true answer. I have always been interested in photography and I feel that this is the best way to get started. I know what I like to do, but doing it, and being involved in it, are 2 different things. I am taking the charge and moving forward with finding out exactly what I like to do. By taking up photography, I feel that I can find out 2 things. 1) liking photography and 2) traveling. I was talking to my mom about it tonight and she thinks its a good idea. We were talking about different places to go and see, and the furthest away would be Bok Tower in Lake Wales. I am really looking forward to going there and enjoying the grounds there. Another place I want to go is The Ringling Museum in Sarasota. It has been a long time since I have been there. I will certainly start off close to home, but those are long term goals to achieve and very doable.

So, I am in search of something new to do. Something fun to see. And hope that you won't mind a few new pictures every now and then.