Let's hope for a great start to the week!

I am hoping that all the bugs will have gotten themselves worked out this weekend and that I have an email address and access to the systems I need to help out my team!!! I want to get my hands dirty and get into getting accounts taken care of. My team is drowning in accounts and there seems to be no end in sight for a while. Thus the reason I am there.

Anyway, it was a nice and pleasant weekend. Nothing exciting at all happened. We just hung out at the house and relaxed. I went to the pool today and almost witnessed a "girl fight". The reason behind why it would have been was stupid. It didn't happen, but I got stuck hanging out at the pool longer than I wanted to and got slightly burned. Oh well. Hope you all have a great week.

Second day was better...

But I have no system access. So, I am being paid to write on a piece of paper for the person who does the imaging and create little packets of information to be scanned into the database. I have been doing this now for 2.5 days and am quite bored with it. However, I am not going to complain too much because I am making money and working all day. Talk about being stuck between a rock and a hard place. :-\ Anyways, the job is going to be fabulous when I can get into it and get my hands dirty again. You know, dirty playing with other people's money. Ha! Geez I crack myself up! I needed to go back home and feel needed. I feel completely at home there. And the lady that sits next to me lives up here and she and I are going to drive in together and she won't let me pay for gas, tolls, or parking. She is so nice and sweet. It's going to be nice to be able to save even more money. I am very grateful to her for doing this. I actually pass her house on my way, so I will stop at her house and she will drive in. This will be starting tomorrow. Even if its just 3 or 4 days a week, its going to be nice. God put her where He wanted her and I will be very grateful to Him as well. I know that God is looking out for me. He brought me this job and He continues to show He cares everyday. It is absolutely amazing to me.

So, life is getting better. And life will continue to get better. I am not going to rush it anymore. I am going to relax and enjoy my time and my job and get things going the way they need to be for me. I am still working on me. And it feels fabulous!

So the first day was a bust

Oh, the irony in the name of the contracting company I'm working for to get back with Bank of America....Zero Chaos...and it has been nothing but chaos. I was told by my manager to come in today, however, because the paperwork was not right, I had to leave at 12:00. So I was home at 1:15 this afternoon. I felt completely helpless. I was helping out my new team with getting their files cleaned up because I had no access to any of the systems and was told to "put my pencil down" because I was not authorized to be there. So I got the email that I am now finally authorized and will be working all day tomorrow! If its not one thing, its another. So I hope to have more good news tomorrow. Til then...

Great Day That Turned Slightly Sour

It was a great day today. I got a full-time job working at Bank of America again!! I am so excited about that. I can't wait to start working back there again with people I know. It's going to be awesome. But the sour part came when I was looking at my friends list on Facebook and I've lost another friend because of our divorce. I'm slightly torn because now that I've lost my nephews and won't be able to see them, physically or in pictures, but it looks like I won't be able to see my niece and nephew either. What the hell gives!! I know that they are his family and friends, but it wasn't supposed to be like this. His words, not mine. No one was going to treat me any differently, again, his words. Now I see that this wasn't the truth either.

Anyway, I am going to dwell on the good things and not let the dropped friends get to me and move on with my life. It's only up from here!

Thoughts running through my head

So I did a little more soul searching this weekend and I came up with a theory that I think fits pretty well. A thought occurred to me about why this happened. We talked on New Years Eve and we had decided that he was going to finish his 18 months in Savannah and begin to look for new buildings, whether they be in Florida or Tennessee or whatever. In the next 2 to 3 weeks, something happened that he didn't like and I think he was afraid to tell me that he had changed his mind. So instead of telling me the truth and being a man about it, he decided to hide behind lies and lie to me. I honestly feel that this is part of the problem and I firmly believe that I am so much better off without him. I don't need to have someone lying to me as much as he was and excluding me from so much in his life. I never really felt like I was a part of his life the last few years. All of the things that he did, thinking that it was okay because he was "helping" with financial matters by taking care of things on his own. I have taken a step back and realized that things were never going to be the same once he started making those decisions. I am doing pretty well with not talking to him...its been a difficult 2 weeks, but I am handling things pretty well. I've been doing some research on separating myself and it was suggested at least a 3 month hiatus from talking to him, except on an as needed basis. I do believe I can handle that.

But that's all for now. I do have an interview on Wednesday, so keep me in your thoughts for that. Hugs to you all.