So I did a little more soul searching this weekend and I came up with a theory that I think fits pretty well. A thought occurred to me about why this happened. We talked on New Years Eve and we had decided that he was going to finish his 18 months in Savannah and begin to look for new buildings, whether they be in Florida or Tennessee or whatever. In the next 2 to 3 weeks, something happened that he didn't like and I think he was afraid to tell me that he had changed his mind. So instead of telling me the truth and being a man about it, he decided to hide behind lies and lie to me. I honestly feel that this is part of the problem and I firmly believe that I am so much better off without him. I don't need to have someone lying to me as much as he was and excluding me from so much in his life. I never really felt like I was a part of his life the last few years. All of the things that he did, thinking that it was okay because he was "helping" with financial matters by taking care of things on his own. I have taken a step back and realized that things were never going to be the same once he started making those decisions. I am doing pretty well with not talking to him...its been a difficult 2 weeks, but I am handling things pretty well. I've been doing some research on separating myself and it was suggested at least a 3 month hiatus from talking to him, except on an as needed basis. I do believe I can handle that.
But that's all for now. I do have an interview on Wednesday, so keep me in your thoughts for that. Hugs to you all.
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