I'm working on me

Well, forever doesn’t seem to be in the future for me as far as marriage is concerned. David and I are going to part ways from one another as husband and wife. We were friends first before we got married and we will remain friends throughout the rest of our lives. It is going to be strange not having him with me through life’s challenges and ups and downs. I know that I can call him whenever I need to talk to him or vice versa. On my way home, I was listening to my iPod and the song by Sting “Set them Free” came on. “If you Love somebody, if you love someone, if you love someone, Set them Free.” And that is what I am doing. I don’t want to force him to stay married to me if he isn’t happy and just wants to be alone. I think that within the last 18 months, we have just grown apart and I don’t know how to explain it.

Things will be different in our lives, but we will always be there for each other even if it’s not in the physical sense. There are things in life that he wants for himself personally, and I don’t want to hold him back from that. He is not seeing someone else. He would tell me if he was. He just wants to be alone. He wants to be able to have his space and he wants to not have to answer to anybody but himself. All I want is for him to be happy. And if that means that we part ways as husband and wife, and remain friends, then that is what happens. Is it going to be different? Yes. Do I have to like it? No, but I will learn to live with it.

So now, I am working on me. I am going to get back on my feet and I am going to stand up straight and move forward with my life as well. My first priorities are going to be finding a job and finding a place to live. But first I have to pack my life up here in Savannah and move back to Florida. Lots of things have to be worked out and settled and it’s not going to be easy. I wouldn’t expect it to be. But with the family and friend support that I have, I know that I will move forward with my life and live it to the best of my ability.